WINDHAM Broad is the road that leads to death And thousands walk together there; But wisdom shows a narrow path, With here and there a traveler. "Deny thyself, and take thy cross," Is the Redeemer's great command; Nature must count her gold but dross, If she would gain this heav'nly land. The fearful soul that tires and faints And walks the ways of God no more, Is but esteemed almost a saint, And makes his own destruction sure. Lord, let not all my hopes be vain, Create my heart entirely new, Which hypocrites could ne'er attain, Which false apostates never knew. ----- MIND SUMMIT / WOMYN RETROSPECTIVE Hands both tied Got my hands both tied Cynical, and metaphysical, they’re on my mind Hands both tied Got my hands both tied Fallen angel, seraphic abuse, you can’t hide ----- COVER OF "AIKIDO (NEUROTIC / EROTIC)" I apologize for playing with your eyes, but I’m obsessed with you Rolling out of bed is morning in my head, ‘cause I’m obsessed with you Rose mirages into vases, I don’t stand a chance Quiet girls with wrist corsages, cordial silence, I can’t dance Holding breath by graveyards, salt over my shoulder, I’m obsessed with you Rainbow-walking cave-heart never will be bolder, I’m obsessed with you Chickenscratch Rembrandts of your likeness, all this nonsense makes me think My insides cry “try thy finest” why, then, am I at my brink? I told Doctor Tillis to prescribe an illness, but he said his schedule's filled with Children who need Prozac, Prilosec and Lo-jack, triple-sec and Lexapro For second-guesses. Drugs that heal. So we can touch instead of feel Oh, I apologize for playing with your eyes, but I’m obsessed with you Bite your tongue and smile, stick around a while. I’m obsessed with you Neurotic erotic, neurotic erotic, neurotic erotic, neurotic erotic I’m obsessed with you ----- LAURAB CHORUS 1 Come fuck me where the guard dogs play Ahh, I’m waiting and I mean to stay Let’s show ourselves a real good time Let everybody see your face, oh Come fuck me where the guard dogs play Ahh, o holy ghost and magistrate, yeah What’s it mean when all the stars bleed out And you’re the one who’s gotta pay? VERSE 1 If I asked you how you lived, I could tell you how you’d die So long as I got heaven, get your own paradise Yet I can’t help but notice you’re a lover in disguise We’re all lovers in disguise, we just gotta wonder why Promised land by a charlatan, your promised time is up again They all devise some schemes, get you up and down and over them They’re all crying blood, and they’re all leaking screams Lord, our children sleep with death, we let fire steal our dreams Let’s try our hand at Eden, let’s understand ourselves We don’t understand ourselves, we don’t understand our wealth We don’t make those same mistakes, we don’t ask, and we don’t tell And I’m sure you’re not with them, but you’re sure not with yourself But who am I, who are we, who parades your policy Who’s the seventh in the seal, what's the faggot gonna preach? She’s the one we can’t let go, she’s the one with all the teeth She’s the one who leashes clouds into the shape of a beast [Chorus 1] All my love, it goes out to you, but Try and choke me with your fingers cut, now Try and vomit while I sew you shut Try and say my name without a tongue, yeah All my love, it goes out to you, and Never underestimate the truth, yeah Let’s all begin to shed our skin Let the spirit of monoxide in, yeah VERSE 2 Leave dirt to the charity, let’s silence regularity Let’s burden our despair with the tendencies of everything Psycho-temper embassy, our thoughts are so embarrassing Just like a tender heresy, amalgam of the kerosene Inside the mouth of oligarchical semantic parody It’s just me and the prophecy, trust me I’m the man to be If you don’t like the taste of power, simply recommend to leave Let me rule the dialects, the fortress and the army I'm a diamond, I'm a rarity, shine extraordinarily Blinding with the clarity, refine irregularities Assign the similarities, define inner identity Remind familiarity, combine with solidarity Do nothing for disparity, it’s all unjust despair to me Intersectionality, hung up on nationality Culture pests and suicide, do you believe in love, and why? Freedom lives in the freedomless, so burn your flags and lay your names to die CHORUS 2 Come fuck me where the guard dogs play Ahh, I’m waiting and I mean to stay Let’s show ourselves a real good time Let everybody see your face, oh Come fuck me where her animal plays Ahh, o holy ghost and magistrate, yeah What to do when the stars bleed out And the one that’s got your name is gone now Authority or bloodlust Call it what you will, but Let's finish up Redemption sure as hell won't wait for us They'll call your conscience guilty, I sense your heart is willing, But to me, it's up to dust Starving hearts can make a killing What's to self is extra steps Heritage just couldn't guess And a god can never win Against those sins you can't confess And the markéd dress to best Another century of pests that tell you Who to love, how to live, which wolves to impress T-t-t-tell me, why you look the way you do? T-t-t-tell me, why you sell yourself to fools Her animal, is our animal Is our gospel, and our downfall Our enlightenment, our history She rides atop the wicked back of idolatry Her animal's your gospel Your gospel's dialectic Those jaws, those chains Fervent and electric Her animal's your gospel Your gospel's dialectic Antiquity and peril Are swimming in the septic Come fuck us all with generational guilt Oh god, shame us all with the legacy you built There's a reason children jam calibers in their skulls So you try to bulletproof em jamming scripture down their throats Holy words are thoughtless Mercy sold to prophets Cut the tongues of emperors, and addicts to a promise Not sapphic-tinted thrones, nor queer aligned material No two-spirit, melanin, no slavery ethereal Gods don't win, no Gods don't win, no Gods don't fucking win Lick your lips, you birthright costumes Put the world on a leash, and let the world cry itself to sleep Trauma undernourished on the hospital floor Look away, look away, you’re immorality’s whore

SAFFLOWER/SHAPESHIFTER Oh, spit it out now Spit it out, your spectre is near Will you find relief here? Can your grace keep you with me? I stand right beside you We stand in the bestial heat What more can we ask for? Rain falls, into soil we seep Oh, spit it out now Spit it out, your spectre is near Will you find relief here? Can your grace keep you with me? I see sparrows and vultures Talons deep in serpents and thieves While alone comes her creature Shapeshifting while burning alive ----- YELLOW WITH ROPE The stars bled out, it feels so long ago What cold light left carved our shadows into stone Rancid time, conquer and combine Drift us off into the night What can you give me, that I can’t give myself? And though I still get nervous, I bet you couldn’t tell Ask for more, ask for more Be mortality’s whore Dusk draws near, and life’s not fair If time counts for anything, what’s left for us to share? Our shadows never look Quite like us So let’s shed away the husk All I need is one true friend I want total peace of mind To leave the hurting world behind I'm not scared; I swear I'm free It may collapse the fear That burns to bring the worst from me Much too smart to sound uptight Not to cheat what I deserve Nothing hidden and nothing wasted So far from dead, frustrated Too smart to ask for more This is all I've waited for Nothing hidden and nothing wasted Nothing past the love I've tasted It's wrong but right; magic change I finally hurt to live on up to this name Not right; it never changes When finally hurt to live on up to this thing ----- DEATH COMES ALONE, NAYIRAH Hush-a-bye, don't you cry Go to sleepy, little baby Go to sleepy, little baby When you wake, you shall have All the pretty little horses All the pretty little horses Blacks and bays, and dapples and greys All the pretty little horses Go to sleep, don't you cry Rest your head upon the clover Rest your head upon the clover In your dreams, you shall ride While your mummy watches over Blacks and bays, and dapples and greys All the pretty little horses All the pretty little horses All the pretty little horses All the pretty little horses [forever] My kind of love isn't fair